Victorious Waiting.

the first few weeks of any new year, keeps in at a bliss at being able to start afresh with a slate that has hardly been touched, written on, or even clouded with bits of chalk dust.

i used to make new year's resolutions when i was younger, things pertaining to weight, exercise, being nice, Bible reading. and every year i miserably failed.

after about the second year of high school, i no longer saw the need to make a new goal in my life where i could only end up in failure.

this year however was different. after my last week of 2009 was rocked by the Urbana conference.

ending the year and starting the year with a bang. God began to do some revealing within me. he did some major revealing when it came to the area of my life where i needed to really work on.

patience. as i get older i have become to realize the truth about myself.

i am freaking impatient.

and as i become more busy with life and more involved and more just out there. i expect fast, quick results. i hate waiting. it could be anything, waiting in line for checkout. i can give really dirty looks when the cashier is just a tad bit slow. or waiting for things to pan out in my life, so that i can go overseas and see the world.

i hate waiting for my amazon purchases to come into the mail and i hate waiting for things to start. i would rather be late than to wait.

i want results now, i want answers now, i want to be tended to NOW.

God revealed this ugly side of me, with tenderness and a bit of amusement as he said, "you need to relax girl"

why was i in such a hurry? maybe it is my mkness of always going and doing. or the fact that i want to do so much.

but God says wait and to enjoy the process. wait to go overseas, wait to meet your future husband, wait in line at giant, wait for the nclex test to come, wait for miracles to happen, wait.

and with this new revelation birthed my new year's resolution this year.

Victorious Waiting.

waiting is an act of Obedience that is shown again and again in the Bible.

- Jesus waited THIRTY years before he began his ministry.

- Mary and Martha had to wait FOUR days after the death of their brother, for Jesus to come.

-Abraham waited more than who KNOWS maybe EIGHTY years before he got his beloved son

- Noah waited in the ark for 370 days, can you imagine with all that nasty animal poop, let alone it took him at the absolute most 100 years to actually build the ark.

- Jonah waited in the belly of a SMELLY FISh for THREE days.

and the list just goes on and on of people in the Bible, who were commended for their ultimate Waiting Skills.

Therefore I will Wait, and pray that in Waiting I can Be Victorious.

that by Waiting God will mold me and show me even greater things that i have only yet to imagine. that waiting is a GOOD thing.

so here i go to wait upon the Lord for He is Good.